I'm not sure how to start this blog post. I know it has been a while since I have written to you, and I am sorry. I have had things to say but haven't known how to say them. I was so keen when returning from a short vacation in Mozambique to fill you in. Tell you about the students who have been selected for Forward Education '08. Tell you about the 3000 metical (Mozambiquen currency, about $120 Canadian) bride I had to pay to stay out of jail. Tell you about the deep see fishing trip where I caught a couple bit King Mackerels. However, over the past 4 days, non of that has mattered. Before I continue, I would ask that you all read a previous post that I wrote back in September it was titled. "now is the time for a miracle." Please read it before you continue on with this post.
I just erased a paragraph that I had written because for now, I am still trying to process what has happened.
Inkosinathi passed away at approx. 3:45 am Sunday morning. I was with him during that last 12 and a half hours of his life and was with him as he left us. I am in a very strange place and am still in denial that he is gone. Over the past five months I have been visiting every week or two and have helped transfer him to get his HIV/AIDS treatment at the local clinic. I keep thinking I will go visit him next week.
Through all of this, I am trying to find the justice in this. I came here to provide that. Where is the justice in a 13 year old boy dying an unbelievably painful death caused by a thing called AIDS and a thing called TB? Two things that were given to him; two things he did not find or ask for.
I have come to one conclusion. There is no justice in that. And that frustrates the hell out of me.
The funeral is on Saturday. I ask that you pray for Emily, his family, and for me. It will be a very difficult day.
I am here to fight for the youth of this continent; I am here to fight for Inkosinathi. I lost the fight and failed him. I don't know if it is worth it anymore; any of this.
I do not want encouragement or your sympathy, I just want your prayers. More importantly I want you to think and pray for him and his family. They are who matter now.
